Once again you make my heart stir
From the mere, slightest gesture
A kind soul with a loving heart
An ice-cream cone with your touch
I realized today that if I were to ever go overseas to study, it would be quite difficult for me to leave everything here in S'pore with a peace of mind. Going back to my grandma' house tonight made me feel an overwhelming sense of homecoming; her aromatic cooking, loving gaze, tender touch.. Just being there makes me feel like I've reach home and that I'm now in a safe haven. Bonding with my aunts over a pot of delicious steamboat and chatter of dialect gave me a deep sense of nostalgia, and I wondered then if we would always be able to do this. Then later, when my uncle came over to have yet another insightful and brain-boggling discussion, I could feel that deep set happiness that I've not felt in a long time. Family truly means the world to me, and I know now that I would never be able to desert them, not matter how hard I may try.
But at the same time I feel truly blessed for all these. Do I deserve it though? All the bad things I've done, all the sins I've committed, all the thoughts that I should never have had in my mind- they've yet to be washed away, yet I'm given so much to cherish and love. Makes me feel like I'm absolutely unworthy of everything, and then I fear too that they will all be taken away too soon. Just like that saying, "All good things must come to an end".
& then the sweet, yet strange gesture from a certain someone that made me wonder why the hell you're doing this.
From the mere, slightest gesture
A kind soul with a loving heart
An ice-cream cone with your touch
I realized today that if I were to ever go overseas to study, it would be quite difficult for me to leave everything here in S'pore with a peace of mind. Going back to my grandma' house tonight made me feel an overwhelming sense of homecoming; her aromatic cooking, loving gaze, tender touch.. Just being there makes me feel like I've reach home and that I'm now in a safe haven. Bonding with my aunts over a pot of delicious steamboat and chatter of dialect gave me a deep sense of nostalgia, and I wondered then if we would always be able to do this. Then later, when my uncle came over to have yet another insightful and brain-boggling discussion, I could feel that deep set happiness that I've not felt in a long time. Family truly means the world to me, and I know now that I would never be able to desert them, not matter how hard I may try.
But at the same time I feel truly blessed for all these. Do I deserve it though? All the bad things I've done, all the sins I've committed, all the thoughts that I should never have had in my mind- they've yet to be washed away, yet I'm given so much to cherish and love. Makes me feel like I'm absolutely unworthy of everything, and then I fear too that they will all be taken away too soon. Just like that saying, "All good things must come to an end".
& then the sweet, yet strange gesture from a certain someone that made me wonder why the hell you're doing this.
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contemplative
Current Music: 夜曲- 周杰伦
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